Not only does the devil accuse us day and night (see Rev. 12:10), but he also accuses God, His heart and His motives towards us:
“Now the serpent was more subtle andcrafty than any living creature of the field which the Lord God had made. And he [Satan] said to the woman, Can it really be that God has said, You shall not eat from every tree of the garden?And the woman said to the serpent, We may eat the fruit from the trees of the garden,Except the fruit from the tree which is in the middle of the garden. God has said, You shall not eat of it, neither shall you touch it, lest you die. But the serpent said to the woman, You shall not surely die,For God knows that in the day you eat of it your eyes will be opened, and you will be like God, knowing the difference between good and evil andblessing and calamity.”(Gen. 3:1-5 AMPC)
In the account from Genesis chapter three written above, the devil was suggesting to Eve (and still is to us today) that God was withholding what was best for her and that really, God had lied to her and that in reality God didn't have her best interest at heart. The devil was insinuating (and still is to us today) that God was selfish and self-seeking and that He didn't want her or anyone else to become like Him; that He selfishly wanted to rule and know it all and keep such knowledge from her and Adam selfishly and without consideration of what was best for her and Adam. All of these suggestions were lies and a false representation of the thoughts, the heart and the motives of God. The Word makes clear to us that God always has our best interest at heart:
“This is what the Lordsays—your Redeemer, the Holy One of Israel: “I am the Lordyour God, who teaches you what is best for you, who directs you in the way you should go.”(Isaiah 48:17 NIV)
And of course, out of pure love, God gave His all to us without withholding anything from us:
“For God so loved the world that He gave His only begottenSon, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life.” (John 3:16 NKJV)
Or perhaps we can look at the following verses to see just how much the Father gave us out of the good pleasure of His will:
“Blessed bethe God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who has blessed us with every spiritual blessing in the heavenly placesin Christ, just as He chose us in Him before the foundation of the world, that we should be holy and without blame before Him in love, having predestined us to adoption as sons by Jesus Christ to Himself, according to the good pleasure of His will, to the praise of the glory of His grace, by which He made us accepted in the Beloved.” (Ephesians 1:3-6 NKJV)
And the list goes on. So, when thoughts such as "God doesn't want you to believe" or “God doesn’t want you” or “God has ulterior motives” or “God wants you in hell” (and even if those thoughts come with powerful feelings), understand that these are straight from the enemy of your soul. Therefore, stand your ground in faith believing the Word of God. The Bible says that God is no respecter of person (see Acts 10:34). Therefore, He is not withholding faith and salvation from you while allowing it to someone else. God sent His only begotten Son for all of us so that whosoever believes in Him will not perish but have everlasting life (see John 3:16). Furthermore, the Bible confirms that God desires that no man perish but all have everlasting life (see 2 Peter 3:9). Along with that, the Bible assures us that God takes no pleasure in the death of the wicked (see Ezekiel 18:23). And concerning God's very nature; God is love (see 1 John 4:16).
So choose truth over the lies of the enemy, and keep choosing truth no matter how long the battle, relying on the Holy Spirit and standing on the promises of God’s Word in faith with God’s help (such as the ones I just mentioned above). Quote Scriptures back to the father of lies, just like Jesus did when he was tempted of the devil in the wilderness. Submit therefore to God, resist the devil and he will flee from you (see James 4:7). Choose the truth and let your feelings catch up later.
Lastly, please understand that the devil tries to make people think they are a special case; that they are different; that somehow, God has a different treatment for them, even a treatment outside of what the Bible declares. These are lies. You are not different from any of us; none of us are different from any other in the sense that we all need a Savior. There is no difference. We were all dead in sins and trespasses (see Ephesians 2:1). We all sinned and are falling short of the glory of God (see Romans 3:23). Without Him, we are all sick with the disease of sin. Big and small, all sins must be paid for and Jesus paid for them all,without exception. In fact, the Bible says that where sins abound, grace abounds even more (see Romans 5:20). So be greatly encouraged. The devil is a liar. God is good and in Him there is no darkness or shadow of turning (see 1 John 1:5 and James 1:17); you can trust Him. He is a Rock and a Refuge to all who place their trust in Him. You can bank on the promises of His Word.
Be encouraged, there is hope! There is a way out.